The Art of Not Being Okay
Photo by Niklas Garnholz on Unsplash I. You will find the truth in an empty car parking lot. The tears will go away as quickly as they come. You will dig your hands into an old wound, ready for the mess and the pain. Instead, you will come up empty-handed and you will feel nothing. You will wish you were drunk so you don’t have to remember. But you will be sober and you will remember how he looked you in the eyes when he lied. That ought to make you feel something but all you will feel is numb. This numbness will take over your body for days to come until you accidentally spill boiling water on your finger one day. It will hurt like hell but in the first few seconds, you will stare at your trembling finger and think, finally you can feel again. But please remember. You do not need the pain to realize you are capable of feeling. II. You will look for the right moment to admit you are not okay. But you will realize there will never be a moment when you do not feel vu